addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
vania has a nice blog ^.^
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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since i can't update my links page just yet, i shall put the link here instead.
vania's super nice blog
check it out, i really like the layoutt (a lot)
i have been stuffing myself with food. like really, seriously. argh. i fear obesity. this time, the stuffing is different. it's like. argh not i-am-really-stressed so stuff me!, more of a how-could-she-do-that-to-me feeling. i feel so loser x.x bahh. i'm sorry but i don't take situations like this very well...
i like vania's blog not just cos of the layout, but also cos it reminded me of sth very impt. something i've forgotten for almost a year now. something, that without what happened during sports fest heats, i wouldn't have realised. argh i've been so BLIND for the past year. been so caught up in my world that..i guess i've forgotten about a lot of things i used to enjoy and a lot of people i love so much. agh okay anw it was the pictures in vania's blog that made me feel so ashamed of myself. specifically the ones from track nats last yr. with all the seniorsss. oh gosh, i like. i feel like i forgot about everyone. like EVERYONE (cept the really mean grrr but i don't consider her my senior anw, she's hardly human. pfft) aghh oh man. candice,sabby,vania,huijuen,jingwen,porgie,katho,zan,huishan, shermin,zihua,janessa and like a whole buncha ppl who i've probably missed out x) sorreh. but like arghh yea, i feel so bad for forgetting them. i mean, they havent' crossed my mind for really long so, i consider that to be forgetting. i mean, of all people, me, the one who's been with rgstnf since my sisters were thereee. yea i shld rmbr them the most right! gah okay from now on, i will make xtra effort to communicate with them. oh man, thankyou vania! (: the pics were super cool. gosh can't believe i was so blinded by -------. i actually believed all the bad things she said about the nice nice snrs whom i had aquainted myself with much earlier than she had. i feel stoopid.
sigh, anw on a depressing note, i hate staying at home. sigh. i really am starting to wonder why my parents are acting this way... it's scary. they're different from what they were. i don't know, i just don't like it when they're like that.
sigh, you can just..turn up for races like that. when for so long, you'd disappeared. for so long, you never seemed to care. it was for so long..that i got used to it. and now, when you try to make up for it, it isn't the same, it just makes me feel horrid to see you there.
they should stop trying to make up for things they've done wrong. they're just making everythign worst. both of them sound like they need to go be counselled or sth. sigh. it's creepy, i just.. it's just not the same! how can you pretend that things are the same!
stop treating me like i'm ur couseling patient, like i belong to a mental asylum or sth.
when will it all stop?
sigh okay bad entry bad bad bad entry.
argh okay maybe blogging wasn't such a good idea.
they can't make up for lost time like that, they just can't...